Have faith

I have wanted to be a mother for as long as I can remember. I was the typical girl as a child. Baby dolls and pink! A lot of my playtime involved being a stay-at-home mommy while my husband was a lawyer, doctor, or any other profession that involved money...what can I say? Anyway, I would "give birth" to my babies, make them birth certificates, give them beautiful names, get them baptized (did I mention I was also the preacher?) and then I would take care of them. I think there was even a short period of time that I turned my mom into a doll babysitter.

I am 30 now and still have not had children. I believe that God has a plan and that he hasn't yet deemed it time to bless me in that way but that doesn't reduce my yearning. And it doesn't help that it seems people all around me are pregnant or have just delivered. A dear friend just had a handsome little boy and a high school friend was just blessed with a daughter. I am going to a 1st birthday party this weekend as well.

Now don't get me wrong. I do not wish to belittle these blessings for my friends. I am just describing my yearning. This post is aimed at believing that God will provide, but in His own time. And he may never provide for me the way I want Him too. Instead of biological children, he may at some time provide me with children we adopt. Or he may send me into the path of becoming a foster parent. That has crossed my mind before. Maybe he just wants me to be the best auntie I can be and work with children through my church, as I do now teaching Sunday School. I cannot say what His will is at this time but that does not mean I cannot continue to hope that he will bless me with a child brought forth from my womb. However, until that day I will keep believing in and worshipping my God. I will continue to try and follow the path that I believe he has set for me and trying to live by example to others in my life. I really hope I am setting a good example.

I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me. Phillipians 4:13