Unsure

I hate being unsure. I have been unsure about one thing in particular for months (maybe even a year) now, but today I was given information needed to make my decision. It doesn't make it any easier but it is not anything I wish to discuss in a public forum. However, the decision has been heart wrenching and I wrote this poem today to express how I feel and to remind myself that no matter what I am feeling I know that God's presence will help me to find the strength to move on. (Please understand as you continue that I am no poet.)

I'm drowning in a sea of deception.
Another wave of lies overtakes me.
I scream for help but no one is there,
At least no one that can see me.

And then His hands are upon me,
He gives me strength and hope.
I feel his peace, love and truth
And know that I have an invisible rope.

I want to dwell in Him,
For my whole life through.
I want to be His shining light
And live as His Son taught me too.

It's a little raw, and I am not completely sure it is finished but it just poured out of me today and I wanted to share it. I am sure everybody feels this way at some point so maybe, just maybe, this will help someone.

I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me. ~ Philippians 4:13