Chaos

My life is feeling very chaotic and I need a purge. We have crap stuff we haven't seen in the two years we have been living in Eric's grandmother's house, but for some reason some members of the household feel we need to keep ALL of it! And on top of that we have kept most of her stuff because it was her stuff and we must keep it forever (please read between the lines at the sarcasm at the last part of that sentence.) I loved Eric's grandmother but she had So. Much. Stuff. I am pretty sure she kept everything she had ever bought since she had moved into that house. I absolutely LOVE some of the stuff she had. We have kept most of her dishes and some decorative stuff and her dresser, but not everything is my style and Eric doesn't really have a style. I feel like I can't breathe in that house sometimes because of stuff. I understand things with sentimental value but to keep EVERYTHING just because it was her's is not working for me. And then there is the stuff that is still in boxes from when we moved in. There are a few things stored in the garage that I want to keep, like my Willow Tree Angels, that we don't have any place to display them. But I gurantee a majority of those boxes could be emptied and taken to charity. I really need some order in my life. I really need some cleanliness in my life. I really don't want to fight with my husband about stuff being EVERYWHERE! I really want to be able to walk to where something is supposed to be and be able to find it. And I really wish I could pay someone to come and deal with my filing once a week (LOL!) With everything else going on in my life (two house payments, school, work, family) I really just wish that I had a haven away from the world. And my house doesn't fill like that right now. It feels like someplace I dread going because it is a pig sty. I think my husband finally understands my mindset. Now we have until August 20th to get it better organized before I start back to school. Maybe if I felt like I had that haven I wouldn't stress so much about the other things. I feel like a lot of this is my fault. Between work and school I have not had the energy to keep up with my house. I just think if we could get it to where we want it before school starts I won't feel like I need to have much energy to deal with it. Everything will FINALLY have it's place and I can get it when I need it and then put it back...instead of our current issue of having to try and find it because the last person who had it just laid it down where they were instead of taking 10 seconds to walk it back to its home. I am just as guilty of that as anyone. I have pinned several organization blogs to my Pinterest page. Now is a good time to read some of them.

***I am pretty sure I have been rambling and I apologize in advance if you can't follow. I just had to get it all off my chest!